4th: Obsessiveness

Life is... good when you get presents

Hello world,

So as I'm reading through other people's blog, I've been wondering. What is this blog for? Is it to vent out thoughts? To journal your life? What is the use of this really? Whatever the answer may be, I'm excited to be on it again. I know i've said this like one thousand times but other people are writing like they are some well paid journalists for Newsweek or Times. Anyway, I really enjoy writing here on my blog. Although I have to admit, this is not private at all. I am hoping that no one creepy will stalk me.

I chose to write about obsessiveness. I went shopping with my mom today and I got a Christmas present (yay!) not from my parents but from someone else. Either way, it made me think. Why did I buy what I bought? Honestly, it was because I just liked it. It's a brown jacket and really, I have about three other jackets but I still wanted this one. Now, I would not call this being obsessive but it is questionable. What does being obsessive mean? Doing things over and over again? Having something occupy you so much that you can't do anything else? Definition of obsession is the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire, etc. Personally, I guess I have many obsessions myself. Texting, sleeping, shopping, and namebrands. Sadly, all those things are useless things that will not last a while. So when people claim that God must be your obsession, He should dominate your thoughts and feelings. Period. I know I may sound hypocritical because God is not my obsession many times and I'm talking about how he should be; just hear me out. Life truly is not a whole length of time. As a matter of fact, 2008 will be over in 7 days. Amazing right? Truly. To have our lives be filled with those unnecessary things, it seems so futile. However, being humans, we can't help it. I can't help it. I tell myself constantly not to be a materialistic freak but once again, I have conquered at being one. It is amazing how I do it. Anyway, putting that aside, I want to learn how to be obsessed with God. I truly respect those who are filled with God all the time. For example, my daddy chuntastic. He seriously inspires me so much. You can just see God in him. A MAZING. Anyway, I guess this is something that we all need to work on . I'd appreciate your prayers on this.

You know what else I need to work on? Writing in the same verb tense. My tenses are all over the place. I know blogspot is an informal writing but I dont think it'll hurt to write like how I am supposed to in English class. (:

I talked about chuntastic before so I guess he shall be my pod (person of day)

MR. CHUNTASTIC

I reckon KC doesnt have a blog. Doesn't matter! I dont think words can fully describe Kevin. First of all he's my daddy. I've known kevin for about.... 7 years? 6 years? I don't even remember. I just remember that Kevin was not like the other guys. Yes the other guys back in the elementary days. Dear. They were so mean to me T.T But those were some fun times man. Every guy was so mean to me. They hated me and I hated them. I gave up trying to be nice to them. Haha. Honest confession guys. I'm sorry (: Anyway, Kevin was always nice. He was always the one that cared and looked after people. He says he changed a lot and all that change just made him an even better person. Everyone who wrote or writes about talks of him as a Man of God. There is certainly no doubt about that. It is so evident that his faith is strong wherever and whenever. Really, I look up to Kevin a lot and not only cuz he's my daddy :P but because he's truly a legit person to follow after. I'm so blessed to have someone like KC in my life and I can say that he influences my life in little or big ways. Whatever way he does it doesn't matter. I know I don't talk to you very much Kevin but I know that when I have something to talk about you'll be a great listener. We'll have some more GT later dude. Bring back more Sunday School stories (: Dank! Thanks Mr. Chuntastic. You're more incredible than Mr. Incredible.

Love,

Lena 

3rd: The Necessity of Love

Life is... filled with people that love you

Hello world,

Maybe that's an overstatement or maybe that's an understatement. So is life really filled with people that love you and me? The answer is a clear yes. I never realized this until recently. These people, I knew they cared about me, but I never saw how much I meant to them. Forgive me, I'm not trying to sound conceited or anything but I honestly mean what I am saying.

Few days ago, I went to a party and to my surprise, my two cousins were there. It was totally unexpected and I was so stoked to see them. Seriously, they're freaking awesome. That day, I saw how much I have changed. My cousins pointed that out to me. They told me how glad they were to be able to have a time like that with me. I mean, I've basically lived with them since i was born. They used to come take care of me and visit me everyday after I was born. I honestly can say that they are probably my two closest family members. Anyway, we talked about school and life. Surprisingly, my parents were not the only ones that expected much out of me. My two cousins never told me this until now. They had so much expectations and hopes for me - it was beyond what I had imagined. Yes, I knew they cared and wanted the best for me but I had not a slightly clue of the life that they wanted me to live. Some topics were not as serious as other. Actually, there were countless numbers of idiotic things but everything was precious to me. Some of the stuff they told me were "hey, WE cant marry a white guy but YOU can. So you should. I am so down for that". I mean, no matter how stupid it was, it was a valuable time. It truly showed me how important love was in our lives. Knowing that somebody deeply cared for and loved you can change your life. For me, it just proved how much more i needed to study. I need to get into some prestigious college and I need to make them proud. It's more than making myself and my parents feel good. This is a way for me to show them that I love them too. There are other ways to express love but as for me, I choose to express it this way. Although I know they will love me just as I am, it definitely would not hurt anyone if I got into some good college. (Well, it will be a sad story to those who get rejected but then again, life must go on. )

The basic necessities of life are: shelter, sense of belonging, and love. Shelter covers thing such as housing, food, and protection from harm. Reality check, not every one has these but it does not mean it is unnecessary. A sense of belonging, this is a tricky one. There are people that are very strong willed and they can stand up for themselves and they have no problem being their own individual. However, for the most part, humans need to feel like they belong somewhere. I know I feel this way many times. This accounts for times when we feel lonely or unwanted. Or, those times when we've been nosy. It is a natural process of life and we cannot help it. Love. Love, love, love. It is such a commonly used word. In the bible, it is used 551 times. Chapter 13, verse 13 of 1st Corinthians states "And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. The greatest of these is love". I guess love is really important. It basically covers the other two necessities in life. Now, this post was pretty long. I'm not a very strong writer but I just have many things to say. So, forgive me for my low leveled writing style. As long as you get what I am saying, it is all good.

My person of the post shall be:

EK

I bet some of the people figured this one out easily. (ahem, peter chiu) Anyway, wow we met in a very very interesting way. It's like watching a chick flick. Haha. Eh, I don't know how to start this. I don't want to describe how we met. That's a scandalous story. Just kidding. But I don't think i'll ever forget it. By the way, I am never going to another West high dance i don't think. That was almost a disaster. Moving on, you're a very confusing and fickle person. Very undecisive and a known player. (haha, forgive me for saying that) On top of all that, you're a good talker. So i guess that accounts for your player-ness. Whatever your reason may be, I still think you're quite a person. It's fun talking to you although sometimes, you make me feel crappy. But that's alright. I know you're kidding. At least i hope you are. Dude you better be kidding. I'm sorry i always talk about myself to you. I know it can get a bit annoying but you're a pretty understanding person i realized. Thanks dude. But most of all, thanks for listening to my crap all the time. Now, i've surpassed the level where I complain. I've come to a level where I talk nonsense. My nonsense includes me talking about how I'm gonna get into Stanford. I say my chances are slim, but you never tell me that. So far, you've told me to study to get into Stanford. That's a motivation. I'm sorry my grades are not good. But I honestly hope you don't mind. Promise is a promise. So if I don't get straight A's I guess you don't have to take me. It's up to you. (: I think i've been sleeping super late because of you recently. JK but haha those retarded times on meebo. Fun stuff. And i absolutely love how you get mad at me everyday. I'm realllllllllyyyyy sorry. Like, really, I am. (: Anyway, it is time for me to go to bed. So I shall end my story here. Good night to you too (: Oh, next times, when you attempt at a flower face, please do it right. Don't kill the poor pretty flower face of mine :P jk. Text! And stop and breathe dude. 

Love,

Lena

2nd: School & Classic

life is... promising

hello world,

Today, I was really happy for some reason. I don't know why. Actually, it might have been the fact that I went and talked with my APUSH teacher. I've been getting really bad grades lately and school has been very stressing. Anyway, I had a small conference with him and he just made me feel so much better about myself. I've been complaining for the past two weeks to E and P about how I will never end up in a college. Well, I realized something. It's promising to know that most people these days go to college. It's stressing to know that it's about WHAT college you go to. Either way, i'll end up somewhere besides a community college. (no offense) So, i was talking to my teacher and he told me that he's not worried about me. That just made my day. So far, this week, I've been so on top of my apush readings and everything. I truly wasted my time first semester and there is  nothing to blame but myself. So, my goal is to kick it up a notch and get focused. I don't know how many times I've said that, but I'll make more of an effort. I have been traumatized by my grade.

I already said I'm not much of a writer. You read everyone else's post and then you read mine, it's a piece of some 4th grade crappy writing. English definitely is not a favorite of mine. I like how this is totally like Xanga. Remember those Xanga days?! They were classic old times. I remember i used to get so intense with those htmls. Then myspace kicked in. Still crazy htmls. Facebook, well facebook was really straight forward. Now back to blogging and xanga type. I love how vintage are so trendy. From clothes to shoes, to bags, vintage, old, classic, they're the trend. If they sold these websites at a store, Xanga would be sold at Urban Outfitters. Facebook sold at Abercrombie and Fitch. Myspace? Obviously Hollister. I can give you legit explanations of why each would be sold at those specific stores. This paragraph was totally random. 

Hm, it's almost one. I have seven minutes left.

I wish i could type up an essay as easily as i wrote this.

Hopefully, this will help me.

Good night (:

love,

lena

oh! my person of the day!

KEVIN YOSHIKI

Honestly, I don't know why I decided to write about you. Probably because I'm talking to you right now. Anyway, Hey, i've seen you like once! We've talked for like ten years. I know we can't hang out very often  because yes, i'm a loser and i live in a far place. (I don't want to say exactly where in case there are creepers out there reading this) Regardless, i love talking to you. I know you do too! JK So far, you have a great personality. (Even though you're a flirt, i guess i'll overlook that :P) Also, i'll overlook that fact that you love my sister more than me. So sad. Anyway, from the beginning you've been so nice. I don't even know why. We barely talked the time i met you. I was just really amazed that you spoke korean pretty well. But friendships gotta start somewhere! Oh kevin, I don't even know how to describe you. (partly because of the fact that we haven't talked in person!) I'm definitely looking forward to NRB day. (As long as my mom decides to be nice, we're so down) Hey, you better not have deleted the 11 minute video of you talking to yourself basically. I swear you have like 30 minutes of me being a retard. Not fair. But i also have your pictures. STILL, i want to see that 11 minute video (: Hey, thanks for being such a friend. I hope once I get a car and everything we'll become like thousand times closer. I'm expecting you to keep your promise (:

love,

lena

My Very First Post

Life is... so-so

Hello world,

Well, well, look where I am right now (:

Online, all done with homework.

Making a blogspot. Honestly, i'm not much of a writer. I hope i don't get addicted to this thing....

Tehe i'm stuck i don't know what to write.

Well, let me start off with my inspiration.

two words:

PETER CHIU

no doubt about that.

if it wasn't for the hardgay peter chiu. I would be in bed right now.

(Acutally not really because my hair is yet to dry)

But the posts i've read were very inspirational.

Seriously, some of these posts by peter were very very touching.

I know i'm not much of an inspiration to anyone...

Honestly, im pretty good at making ppl feel like crapp

but at least on blogspot,  i'll try my best to make you feel happy.

Andrewskizzle had a post dedicated to all his bffls

that was reallll cute. Well, i'll do one person a day (:

Peter Chiu

You got me into this dude. Im praying that i don't get addicted to it. (:

Peter, i discovered your presence in this world when i saw you at kevin's house.

being the usual peter chiu.... Except, i didnt know who u were back then.

And then even as homecoming rolled around, i still didn't talk to you.

So, i dont remember how or when we got to start talking...

hmm i really don't know. anyway, my point is, you're a great guy peter.

I'm truly blessed to have people like you in my life which is not so amazing right now.

Moving on, yes, this post is dedicated to you.

Even though you have your six no five boyfriends, im still gonna write it for you

Even though you like Mike 10000000000x more than me.

i still think you're awesome.

just a bit hardgay at times.

but it's all cool (:

thanks for making me think that i can go to college.

After you get into harvard, make sure to tutor me haha(:

love,

lena

p/s NRB NRB NRB NRB NRB!

Well, at least somebody is eager to read my post... Mr. EK

i shall wrap up this post now.

good night everyone 

love,

lena